i just texted someone I haven’t talked to in 8 months. I held this person so dear to my heart at one point in time. This someone stopped holding me in those high regards so I gave up. I convinced myself I was better off. Maybe I am. I thought I was healed from the butterflies. But when I found myself typing his name into the message, I couldn’t have been more wrong. I still have got no reply. I don’t know if I ever will. I don’t know what i’m feeling but I do know that I hate to love you. Especially torn up tonight. My emotions feel like 10 steps forward, 10,000 leaps back.
Not a particularly good night to be dealing with this alone.
Alright, forever… I was going to say I haven’t updated or said ANYTHING on tumblr in forever, but thats not true because well, obviously I have just its been a LONG time. There. It’s been a long time since I’ve even been on tumblr. It kind of took a back burner to everything else I’m doing in my life. Excuses excuses I know.. I’m working on that, not giving excuses for E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. I am a work in progress, but at least I am working on it! :)
So friends, how is your life? What is new with you? I will not accept ‘nothing’ as an answer because that’s just you being lazy not wanting to truly answer what goes in in your life. I wanna know! Okay? Spill (:
I just found out that City and Colour aren’t coming to Florida. Most of their 2012 tour for January and February is in Canada. They are playing the Wonder Ballroom in Portland, Oregon though. Gosh dang, this sucks I wanted to go so bad.